You Can't touch me

I haven't been myself lately, been spending time thinking on how to solve my life road. As i've so far have be observing myself i realised i've been taking myself to a dead end. Work hasn;t been all good lately. Life has no meanign working at SNEC, routine work every single day.. It's like time is slowly eating you away, the pain on looing at myself every morning crawling out of bed, do my daily monring wash up and grooming and preparing for another day at work. Dragging myself to do things which i have no interest in, how i wish i could find a job which i loved and people there are much more friendly and more considerate.

My dear friend Cindy is leaving my work place, im so gonna miss her. Times like this i wish hw much, if ive could have put slightly more effort in studying in school. Look at me now, i feel so hopeless. I feel like i'm a failure in everything. My parents i can see it in their eyes, they are worried about me and my future. I really thank them for putting so much faith into me and yet i still failed them.

Miri, you are hopeless Miri.. I just wish if there was a magic lamp and i have 3 wishes.. The first one is definietly gonna be to start my lfe over. I wanna start everything over. My life, my style, my future. I'm not happy folks... I reall am not happy. Even though yes i do have a richly lifestyle.. But i feel im living off my parents wealth which i feel to shitty about that. Some lucky girls gets great opperunities to come up with stuff and became successful from there.

I do really pray and hop my turn will come soon. I don;t wanna be looked down upon by my lil sister. I wanna my paremts to pat my back one day and say " Baby Girl, i;m so proud of you "

Please God.. Please.... Help me.. Make my life better, make my life happier, make my life filled with riches and happiness.